Feeling positive sure beats the alternative

I'm so sorry you are sick my little love. It breaks my heart to see you this way. Know that I'm always here to try and ease your suffering!

Old friends...they seem to be popping up all around! Not a bad thing at all since I seem to be short on current ones at the moment! Talking to a long lost friend last night made me feel loved and understood - completely - and at the same time my heart and soul aches for her. I'm here for you ANYTIME!

Confession: It seems I am smoking again. I'm apologize to all those who stood behind me and made me feel proud of quitting. I know how much you hate my smoking...maybe it won't be for long. I tried the whole healthy lifestyle thing and on some odd level it made me feel worse. I can't really explain it other than I know my anxiety level rose considerably. Yet, I really enjoyed the freedom from the addiction and hope to return to that place at some time in the future. Even as I type, I'm not sure I LIKE smoking anymore - odd huh?

Kronenberg beer sucks! Sorry, but it is the most bitter thing I have ever tasted! Yuk! Proof positive that alcoholism isn't an issue - I took one and a half sips and tossed the darn thing and made a nice cup of tea - a real alchi wouldn't have cared what it tasted like! :)

I miss my yoga classes but being a nurse to my boy has been all consuming this week...hopefully I can get back on track next week...then again I have an out of town guest arriving so we'll see how that goes.

"Clandestine man" seems to want to flirt with me again (after almost an entire year of no communication) - harumph! It was one thing when he was exploring his options, but now he is married! It's too bad really, had he chosen me over her, things may have been really good. But since that's not the way of it I say "Be gone!"

It feels good to have some work to do again. Strange how it comes in waves and then leaves me with nothing to do for periods of time...

I've been playing poker again. And liking it!

I can feel that there is a lot of change in the air these days. How will it all shake out? I'm thinking quite well thank you very much!

Wow, after the past few posts, it appears that I have become my optimistic self once again! It's about damn time!