Baby's, boyfriends or neither

Slept like crap - bad dreams and too few hours. It's a baby's first birthday party today for me...I'm thinking there will only be one baby which might make it bearable (I'm not a big baby person at all - maybe when I'm a grandma that will change).
This boyfriend thing, or lack thereof, has me feeling frustrated. I was completely fine all alone until I got my hopes up -aha! lesson learned. Sure wish I could have a "lazy day" today; there has to be a lot of movies I should catch up on available On Demand and staying in my jammies just sounds like more fun than putting on smiles for a group of mostly strangers in this moment.
My sweetness is alive and doing, well...fair. She will sleep it off and be her spunky self again soon tho! Sigh, one fear dissipated.
Just made a decision - wow, this blogging thing can be theraputic! - of course there are some things we all have to do that we really don't want to do, but then there are others that we really don't have to do at all yet we feel obligated to. No birthday party for me today. Somehow, something so small feels extremely liberating. I've recently been called a "push over" and a "softy". I'm one of those people who usually does the "right" thing all the time. Not today, at least not in that sense. Today's "right" thing is to make myself happy. Coffee in bed, a movie or two (or three), hanging at home with my son and...oh yeah, staying in my jammies! Yeah! Does that count as a lesson? I vote "yes".